Sorry again, for taking a while (I’m assuming) to respond. It wasn’t too personal, I was just curious. 

If you have any questions, maybe you could send me an ask un-anon so I can get back to you another way since I don’t check this blog that often anymore. I wouldn’t post the question.

So, I originally took long breaks from this blog because school really picked up and this took too much of my attention. But now the semester is over and I have no desire to return to constant upkeep of this blog.

It just all feels rather tedious and pointless now and I get nothing out of it. Don’t get me wrong, I still have the same views about things and most of this stuff probably still annoys me but I’ve lied to myself long enough about why I started this blog. Yeah, I wanted to voice my opinions but I really just wanted a place to complain about things but when more people started following and creating their on blogs of this sort, my posts became less about me and more about this movement so to speak. One of which, I don’t really care about.

It was nice in the beginning, seeing people share the same views, but in the end, I just don’t really care. And this whole thing is kind of ironic. We constantly talk about not wanting transitioning to be a big part of our lives (that’s why we live stealth) and yet, at least for me, having this blog made transitioning a much bigger part of my life than it was to begin with.

Anyway, I liked seeing people get angry over stupid things, that’s why I stayed around so long. I honestly believe that people that take things so seriously and get so angry, so fast, about every little thing, deserve to have people fucking with them 24/7, but because I’m no longer bored, I don’t get any entertainment from this particular brand of it.

So anyway, I won’t be deleting. I’ll keep this blog up in case there is something I really need to complain about of there’s a part of my transition I really need to talk about, but that’s it. I won’t be on here all of the time and I won’t be religiously checking tags looking for things to complain about.

Also, I got rid of kik because it was draining my battery.

Feel free to ask me questions about things as often as you want and I’ll answer them when I can.

Sorry, have no idea when this was asked so whomever this is may have given up on me answering this but, yes, I am. Why do you ask?

blonde-swanson:

unsolicitedmentalhealthadvice:

Don’t worry if that nutter you know is currently in a manic phase. Gift guides for all! 

Manic doesn’t always have to do with Manic-Depressive or Bipolar Disorder. -_-

To op, look up Manic Pixie Dream Girl.

It refers to “type” or “stock character”. Think Zooey Deschanel in 500 Days of Summer, Natalie Portman in Garden State, or Kirsten Dunst in Elizabethtown. It’s a pretty old concept (Katherine Hepburn is noted as one of the first) but the term wasn’t coined until after Elizabeth town by Nathan Rabin.

linoscarcella:

1.Where did you get it (City & State)?

2.How long did it take (Therapy & Appointments with Endo/Clinic)?

3.How old were you?

4.How much do you pay?

 

My own experience:

1. Manhattan, NYC 

2. 2 visits over the coarse of a month and a half from my first call.

3. 18, turning 19 in a month.

4. I pay 0 dollars as it is based on a sliding scale because I am under 21 and my income says I can not pay for it.

What are your experiences?

1) Houston, Tx

2) I was approved for testosterone after 3 visits (3 weeks) but stayed in therapy for a couple of months before starting.

3) I was given my prescription in April (of this year) but wasn’t able to get it filled for a month so I started a week before my 20th birthday.

4) I paid $17 the first time and then $40 something every time after that because they changed manufacturers.

conflicts:

I want medical resources, legal protection and social education that doesn’t consist of telling everybody about how our surgeries work.

Tumblr appears to just want to make everyone think about gender and trans people 24/7.  That is… really unhealthy, to begin with.

And frankly?  I’m fucking threatened by it.

The Tumblr “trans*” community is full of people who are trying on identities like pairs of shoes, who are obsessed with sex and equate progress for trans people with exposing our bodies to the general public, who are also obsessed with gender stereotypes and clothing.

I don’t want that representation.  I also don’t want transsexuals to be on people’s minds.  Because once you get people thinking, they get curious.  They look for tells, which can be dangerous, and on a less threatening note they also come to their own conclusions about you, including probably “they want me to die because I am cis scum”.

I do not want people to be constantly exposed to what a micropenis looks like or what a phalloplasty does.  I don’t want people to be able to look for signs of binding or hormone use.  There are resources out there for the curious, and I don’t want the average person knowing this stuff because I want to be a normal man, and I don’t want people to see me as anything else.  In a few years I hope to be done with this nightmare, and I don’t want someone figuring me out because I have the puffy T face or because of the scars on my chest.  This disorder has ruined enough of my life, and this kind of visibility and “education” might let it ruin more.

Most people don’t give a shit about trans people’s bodies except as oddities.  Educate people on the fact that we are not oddities, but don’t shove the already stigmatised bodies at them when they don’t want to see them.  It’s going to make us look like obsessive perverts which, if you haven’t caught on yet, society already thinks we are.

I just want to be alive and not worry that some idiot’s political agenda is going to take away my peace because they wanted to show the world how queer they are.  It is legitimately upsetting me.

abovetheabundance:

fatcatsonbikes:

You know what I don’t understand?

Why people in the trans community on tumblr spend all of their time bitching and complaining about other people in the trans community

How about instead of attacking one another we focus on, you know, being accepted by the general public rather than nit-picking each other apart?

the problem is it’s not a community. stop treating my medical condition like a fun little club.

Yes I am.